[oo6] Wishful Thinking...

So.. my period app on my phone says I'm 15 days late on my period!! UGH! I could only hope to God it was because I'm pregnant but I don't get my hopes up anymore. Being overweight, my period is usually irregular but never by this much... & the only reason why I'm not worrying about it because I've been under SO much stress this past couple of weeks it's unreal. I just hope that it comes already or that it doesn't come for the next 9 months from being pregnant...wishful thinking It may not be the right time for us, but I'll take it because it'd be a miracle.


Stress has been taking over my life. I can barely sleep at night & my stomach is ALWAYS upset and I have had migraines 24/7.. We are still broke..and I'm not sure when things will get easier because it just looks like we are headed down an ugly path instead of things looking up. Yesterday we found out that Doug's dad has this guy that works for him that threatened to take him to the department of labor for not getting a check in over a month. Well, none of the guys have been paid since the job has to be completed before they get a check. Apparently, his dad didn't put it in writing so now this guy can get him into a lot of trouble. If he reports the company, they'll get audited and the state will find out about his taxes and everything he's been doing wrong, and possibly get jail time. I know it stresses Doug out to think his dad might get into so much trouble, but what about us? If his dad gets in trouble and the state takes all his money, then Doug won't get all the money he's owed and we'll be broke for God knows how long! Then we'll be really screwed because we won't have a place to go (well, I'll have my parents house still..but he won't) , money, or anything! So depressing to think about but I wish he just would. I need him to get another job so we can have more money coming in than just mine but he doesn't wanna leave his dad. He thinks once they get this job done and that big check comes along things will be better but I don't see it getting better anytime soon...

I just feel like I'm on my own. I feel like I gotta work, make my own money and pay my own bills and let him do his thing.. because he doesn't wanna do what I think he should do and that really sucks. we are suppose to be in this together...