7 years

06/12/2009

Time: 5:29pm

State of Being: eh

Song lyric in my head: poker face
current desire: for meghan to be okay

where am I?: in da bedroom

what's that noise?: ah silence. no one home but me. enjoying the quiet




so Kenny's court was this morning. Meghan came into work in tears. He got seven years. I really don't know how to feel about this. On one hand, seeing my best friend completely broken hearted when she had very high hopes about him going to rehab and getting probation and them getting married and popping out kids. It tears me apart. On the other hand, I think this may be a good thing. I don't know if she's going to wait for him. I don't know her plans yet. I only saw her for less than an hour before i had to leave for the day. And we didn't talk about it due to listening ears of our co-workers.

Russ and I are going over there tonight to chill with her. Apparently lew stole his phone and 'accidentally' texted her "dog boy got seven years" so Russ texted an apology saying that was lew and they started talking. It was funny. Meghan was like "I'm kind of talking to your boyfriend." I was like "he's good to talk to. I talk to him all the time. Especially when i'm not happy."

dog boy comes from when Kenny decided to shop lift a dog collar last year and got caught. With prescription pills on him that didn't belong to him. And it was from our wal-mart where meghan works. in a pharmacy non-the-less. (he spent a couple weeks in jail) yeh so..

ugh! i'm torn. i'm playing supporto friend now. I'm going to play supporto friend.

oh! so anyway. I'm on my way to home and he asked me via text if he could invite her over tonight. lol. so i said of course. then i get a text from meghan saying "apparently you guys are coming over tonight." then right after that i get a text from russ saying "we're going over there for it. it'll be good for her... yada yada yada..."

I live about a mile away from work so i told meghan to come pick me up after work so when russ gets off he can go straight to her place and we can take just one car home.

so yeh.

the mean side of my brain wonders if she can go without sex for seven years. she's already dying with 9-10 months. (that's how long he's been in jail. i just finger counted). I know i couldn't last seven years. well i guess i could if Russ got locked up for that long. but he's not dumb enough to do anything that will get him locked up. so i guess i don't have to worry.

but it's only the first day she found out about seven years. any logical thoughts she might have about the situation aren't going to show up for a while. it just sucks because i know how badly she wants to get married and especially have kids at a younger age. with him being behind bars for seven years, that's not going to happen.

if he really loved her, he would tell her never to come back or contact him at all. He would set her free so she wouldn't have this burden. yes. it would hurt immensely, but she would eventually get over it. in seven years when he gets out if she's still single then they might be able to start something. but seven years changes a person. Especially people in relationships. You're supposed to grow and develop together. in seven years they're going to be entirely different people.

so who knows. i guess time will tell. all i know is that i love my friend and I want her to be happy. Having her miserable like this sucks.

-mel-
5:47pm