Time: 12:56pm
State of Being: peachy
Song lyric in my head: no song. but i do have a poem verse in my head.. half a league half a league half a league onward. all in the valley of death road the six hundred... i have no idea why it popped up in there. (Charge of the Light Brigade)
current desire: for life to say "here. this is what you're supposed to be doing. do it."
where am I?: in the bedroom on the bed
what's that noise?: the AC.. other than that. silence. kind of peaceful
So just for fun, and to utterly confuse myself even more, I decided to take a look through craigslist for job openings. I found an an ad for an after school drama teacher. Of course I had to send my resume. I'd be a fool not to follow my passion in life. I have to pay to get fingerprints and a background check, but it's $87 compared to the $200 for the ESE exam. I'm honestly hoping I get the job. I have to be a certain schools at a certain time. It might interfere with my current school's schedule, because I get out at 3. But I'll cross that bridge when the time comes.
I still have to sit down with Russ and get his input on whether or not to take that exam. He'll probably just roll his eyes and say "I don't see the problem. Take it." lol He can usually logic me out of my mental funk.
Taking the test means memorizing SO many laws. Here. I found a quizlet class to help with studying in case I decide to take it. click here. There's SO much. hahaha I may be a teacher, but that doesn't mean I like to study. I'd rather be taught and take a class. I learn better that way.
But I think there's more than just taking the test. I have to register with the state first. And I STILL have to take my other state exams. I'm not sure Stacy from that school understands that I just have an Official Statement of Eligibility to teach, and not my actual certification. Working at private schools let me get by without needing one so I've been putting off all those exams. Plus finances have been tight. I mean we're comfortable and get by, but outlandish spending just can't happen. I know I might be able to ask my parents for help. And I know they will. I just REALLY hate doing that. Maybe I have to buckle down. They know how important my potential career is to me. I just HATE asking them for money.
So yesterday before work, Stephanie called me in a panic asking if I had a printer. She's my friend from high school that lives three doors down. Her son's project was do the next day and she really needed to print out pictures to put on a posterboard and the the library was closed. I said I did, but it's out of ink, but I'll get some at work. (we've been out of ink for months now trying to get by on light streaky paper if we ever need anything printed lol) So I got some ink. She was outside when I got home, and I told her to text me the links of anything she needed printed. Then at home, I texted her to message me in facebook, so I can print it directly from the computer.. and I still didn't hear anything back from her. Russ said he heard her fighting with her boyfriend outside. So a few minutes later, I decided to head outside with my lap-top. (They usually sit outside for a while). She wasn't out there. I didn't want to knock on her door, because if they had been fighting, it would be an awkward situation. So I call her. No answer. I text her again that maybe we can sit outside on the lap-top and research.. nothing.. about an hour goes by and I text her again asking if there's anything I can do to help research. (Her son's in 6th grade. I really didn't want his grade to suffer if I could prevent it) .. no answer. Nothing all night.
I was up till about 3am stressed about that annoying life choice I have to make. And instead of sleeping in, I woke up at 8. How? I finally get to sleep in and I wake up early? I checked my phone and got a message from Steph apologizing like crazy. She and the boyfriend got in a huge fight and she put her phone on vibrate. Another friend came over really early in the morning to help her out with the project. fun times.
So I stayed in bed for about an hour before coming to the conclusion that I wasn't going to fall back asleep. I got up, took the dog out, then walked to Barbies for some breakfast to go. I needed coffee, because I was still in that tired auto-pilot state.
I've basically been lying in bed all day. it's nice. I got caught up with Once Upon a Time. woo-hoo! I love Regina!
I have to be in the pharmbox at 4:30 today. I need to get up an shower eventually. That gross "i've been lying in bed all day" feeling has come over me. I'm really not used to doing nothing. But I know I need it. I'm so stressed lately.
My neck's been really bugging me lately. Both sides. It's like a double crick. not fun. I think it's due to sleeping weird and random stress. And my face is kind of broken out this week. (broken out to me means like 3 zits. it usually happens around my period, but that's not for another week) (sorry for the TMI.. but hey, it's life)
Anywho, I think I'm actually gonna get up and un-gross myself. So by the time i need to get ready for work, I'm not rushing.
peace!
-mel-
1:29pm
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