Time: 10:49pm
State of Being: just me
Song lyric in my head:
current desire: honestly. good sex.
where am I?: in bed
what's that noise?: the fan blowing. Russ letting out a random snore. and Patches (dog) too.
So last night my friend, Lindsay and I went to see Thirty Seconds to Mars at Universal Studios during their Mardi Gras. Fun times! yay for beads. And Jared Leto! Our friend Mikey from high school lives up there in Orlando and actually works in the parks. We got to see him for about five minutes, but he had friend drama and couldn't hang out.
I got home about 2:30am-ish. Took a shower and went to bed. I felt like I smelled of drunk sweaty people. And I had every intention of getting up and going to church because not only is it Easter, but it is a rare Sunday off.. But I slept in. Way too exhausted. We spent Easter at my dad's. He cooked us veggie casserole and steak. It was very delicious. Then Reagan from two doors down (I used to babysit her daughter... who is now in high school.. i feel old) brought us the rest of their chocolate mouse cake they didn't eat. They were going on a cruise and couldn't keep the left overs. Let me tell you about awesome chocolate fun.
Let's see...
Russ is sleeping.. and I'm (sorry for TMI) really wishing he wasn't. I could use some great sex at the moment. Jilly left for a few weeks to stay with her boyfriend (that's another story) and it was nice having the apartment to ourselves again.
Should I feel guilty when I get mad at Jilly? I guess back story is needed. She's staying with us because her dad kicked her and her baby out and she had no where to go. Now her baby is up with his dad because his dad is an asshole and refuses to give Spencer back. They have court on June 24.. anywho. Jilly loves rearranging things. And cleaning.. a lot.. and putting stuff away where i can't find it. and closes doors too loud.. and always takes the shower right after I mentally decide I want to take a shower... and leaves the stove on.. and lights on..
And I don't want to be mad. I'm not an angry person by nature. And she's one of my favorite people ever. I guess I just feel like my space is invaded. She's lived here since November.
There was a reason I decided no more roommates when Russ and I moved in together... then after our friend Lew moved in with us when he had no where to go, I said the same thing again.. then now Jilly's with us.
I feel like I get mad at the dumbest things. Her room was used as the storage room/spare bedroom in case anyone stays the night. And I had some of Meghan's things in there from her previous relationship. Letters and crap that she asked me to keep for her because her husband doesn't want them in the house. (yeh i know that sounds messed up. and it is. but yeh).. so i've kept it there. whatever. whenever she decides she wants to do something with them, they are there for her. And Jilly decided it's invading her space and brings it to the kitchen. Tells me that Meghan can do what she wants with them. Okay. I get that. But I'm doing that as a favor to Meghan and I dunno. I just got mad. I didn't tell her I got mad. I said I'll probably just put it in the closet.
I hate getting angry. I cry when I'm angry. I can't stop myself. I'd rather be sad than angry. Russ came in the room and was like "what's the matter?" Cuz it was so random. lol. Damn moods.
what else..
my friend Denise might be pregnant. What was her wording? "I took a test and it didn't come out negative." LoL! she's in denial. "Oh I'm going to the doctor next month anyway." "Denise, when was your last period?" "oh.. i dunno.. January.." "Denise! Denial. Snap out of it. This is real." She's not as dumb as that. really. It's from her ex who's she's been on and off again for a while. and they just broke it off again. So this kind of makes that situation more complicated.
speaking of babies..
Russ' friend Dennis is gonna be a dad. Carolina is an amazing girl. I love her dearly.
running out of things to talk about...
hope everyone's Easter (if you celebrate) was amazing!
-mel-
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