NoJoMo one

What was your new year's resolution for 2015? Were you able to keep it or did you fail at it?
I don't think I had one. I tried to search back for one in my diary and couldn't find anything. It was probably to be a better person or to find a way to quit wal-mart. which i did. w00t!

So yesterday Meghan took Mason to an outdoor shopping center called Legacy Place that's just  couple miles from me. They were doing something called follow the yellow brick road. Kids followed the path to each store and got candy. Lindsay came with me to meet up with them. It was fun. After Meghan and Mason left. (Mason got tired and cranky), Lindz and I hung out for a while at Barnes and Nobles. They had a Beatles album playing in the background, and I dressed hippyish with a Beatles shirt. lol It was awesome. After checking out the movies and stuff, we sat at Starbucks for a while and just talked. It was fun. I hadn't hung out with her alone for a while.

Because Cameron and Russ are best friends, Cam tells him many things that go on in their relationship. Sex being a main topic. Lindsay is a 31 year old virgin. When it comes to sex, she shuts down. While Cam is really patient and doesn't pressure her, he does get frustrated, because she gets him going and just stops. And he's always on the giving end when it comes to other acts and she doesn't do anything. So Lindz and I talked about that for a bit. I didn't tell her anything that Russ had said at all. I just kind of led the conversation that way. She admitted she feels guilty, because she doesn't do anything. She's nervous and insecure which is understandable. I gave her some pointers. I asked her what was stopping her from going on the way. It was a serious question. Not pressuring her or anything. She said she wasn't sure, because it's not like she's religious or anything. lol. Just more insecurity. So we talked about that a bit. Then she mentioned something about needing condums. I was like "I'm sure Cam has some." But she didn't think so. She said she was probably gonna have to get some herself. I said "well then go get some." lol So we went to Publix to buy some condoms. I explained to her the different types and stuff and said she probably has to start out simple. And Lindz bought her first box of condoms. I'm so proud.

When I got home, I told Russ. lol. He was like "Cameron has condoms." I knew it. But whatever. This was progress for Lindz, and I really am proud of her. There's no pressure to lose her virginity at all. If it was something truly important to her, I wouldn't even bother help her. She's just really insecure and clueless about anything involving sex.

Unfortunately, sex is the least of their issues. When Lindz and I talked, she believed their relationship was amazing and perfect. Hearing from Russ, Cameron is starting to get the little things get to him. And it's so hard not to say anything to her. While Lindz is my best friend and like my sister, Cameron is like my brother, so I'm caught in the middle of "what do I do?" Cameron pays for everything. He fills up her car all the time. Lindz is always at his place. always. Even when he isn't. And I've lived with Lindsay, and I know that she can be messy. Cam is more on the neat freak side, and apparently Lindz never really cleans up after herself. Cameron took in her cat, because Lindsay's roommates had issues. (Denise and Jay who are also best friends of mine. the issues between them and Lindsay are another long ass story.) Cam has canceled plans with the guys on more than one occasion, because Lindz would just show up, and he feels obligated to hang out with her.

It sucks, because Lindz has never had a boyfriend. A real one. This is her first real serious relationship, and she doesn't know what she's doing. While I love them both to death, they both have communication issues. Cameron is a great guy, and Lindz is an awesome girl. They just need to communicate. Lindz is head over heals in love, and she doesn't even know that the little things are starting to bug him.... to the point that he is fed up, and he's going to talk to her today. At least that's what Russ said last night. I'm so worried for my friend. She's going to be blindsided. I don't think Cameron wants to break up with her, just lay out everything that's been pissing him off. And it is partly his fault too for not speaking up earlier. A routine has been built up, and she just went with it. She doesn't know. One one hand, she should be adult enough to take it, and they can work through it together. On the other, I don't know how she'll react.

fun times.

That's what's on my mind right now.

So I'm doing NaNoWriMo this year (along with NoJoMo lol). I already have over 61,000 words in my novel, and now I'm determined to write 50,000 more in 30 days. I guess i should get cracking on it. lol

peace
-mel-
3:09pm