Time: 4:41pm
State of Being: contemplative
Song lyric in my head:
current desire: a new pt job
where am I?: in the bedroom on the bed
what's that noise?: silence
So I've been thinking this over... and over.. and over.. And I decided I need to write it out.
I've been wanting to quit wal-mart for a while now, and now that I'm not going to have benefits next year, maybe i really should. And find myself a new part time job.
I only teach part time, so can't rely on just that to provide income. Russ says I can quit wal-mart as soon as he finds a full time job. But what if I find another part time job? There's no point in staying at the pharmacy if I don't have insurance. Yes. it pays decent.. probably more than most places, because i've been there so long. But the stress isn't worth it. I want to find something simple and close to home.
Or I can talk with Kelly about seriously finding new gigs. I miss DJing trivia and bingo nights. It's so much fun, and I love doing it. Maybe I can go actively seek bars. If I can host four nights a week, it'll more than make up for my wal-mart paycheck. I usually get $75 a gig which is about 8pm-10pm. I'm there around 7:30 to set up, and leave when I'm done handing out prizes and taking everything down.
I just seriously need to get out of there. It's slowly sucking my soul. I used to be so nice and cheerful. I loved people. Now all they do is annoy me, and it's pretty sad. The amount of work just keeps piling up, and the amount of help lowers. Wal-mart is again trying to save money. Because apparently, we don't do enough work to have the amount of workers we have. So I get into work. I'm the closing shift, and I have to make up for EVERYTHING that wasn't done during the day. Along side with the current patients and the current work load. Every day. I'm done. Then our DM adds on more tasks for us to do. Then the powers that be add more things we have to do. It's ridiculous. On top of that, customers are yelling at me all day long, cussing me out. I'm just done.
So I need a new job. I want to start over. It's time to end this era of my life. I started there in February of 2009. It's the longest running job I've ever had. I've stayed, because it is my back-up plan in case I couldn't find a teaching job. And to all my knowledge, this teaching job I have now may not even work out. Who knows if i'll be back next year. The school is so particular in its ways.
And I'm also feeling stuck in a rut. I'm not myself lately. I think all the stress is just getting to me. And Wal-Mart definitely is a huge part of that weight. Everything happens for a reason. They took away insurance just so I can escape to find something better. 
On another note, I got together with my friend, Gina today. I hadn't seen her since my wedding. Then before that, college. It was fun. We met at Starbucks along with two of her friends that were in the area as well. It was nice to meet new people. And all of us were some kind of theatre nerd, so that was amazing! I miss theatre. I think I might look for a job in theatre. There's a theatre a couple blocks away. I might head there and see if there are any openings.
Gina and I went to Goodwill where I found a theatre mask wine glass, and a cool shadowbox with cloth inside with little words like imagine and persevere. There are little needles in there where I can pin pictures or notes. I love it. I also found a good gift for my uncle. My dad and my uncle exchange gag gifts every Christmas. The rule it that is has to be ugly, and under ten dollars. I found this painting of two rather large women and a piece of cake. (no disrespect, because I am of the large variety. ) It was $6. I texted my dad, and he told me to get it. woo-hoo!
I stopped at Publix to grab a sub for lunch when Gina and I parted ways. Russ is out with his friends doing bachelor party type stuff. (His friend is getting married at the end of the month) So I have the apartment to myself. I think I might catch up on some TV shows, read, or write.
peace!
-mel-
5:06pm
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