To Robert...
The only ones that will understand anything about this are people that have been reading my entries since meeting Robert. I sound like a bitch in all of this, but I'm done with him being really nice one minute only to turn into an asshole the next. So many of my friends said to stay away from him, that he would only do it again and again... I ignored all of them and gave Robert many chances... but I can't take this constant bullshit over and over and over again from him.
To Robert - I'm done.
I'm so fucking tired of your bullshit. You text me and then give me less than a minute to reply before throwing your fucking tantrums. Awww, poor Robert doesn't get his way all the time - welcome to the fucking real world Robert. All I've done is give you chance after chance after chance to change things, yet it always goes back to you being a lying, manipulator, controlling person. Your "goodbyes" don't hurt me anymore by the way. I'm used to them now - one minute you say "I love you" and the next you say "goodbye" -- just like I told you about the "I hate you, don't leave me" thing in Psychology - maybe you should read about it - its got a lot about you in there. I gave you many chances - all you did was try to make me feel like shit about not hanging out - I have fucking priorities in my life - those kids come before anyone else. It's sad that I wanted kids with you when chances are you would have had me pick you over them, which was never going to happen if I did have kids with you. You are a spoiled brat that throws tantrums when you don't get your way. I did nothing wrong and I'm not going to sit here and let you control me by your manipulations and lies about how things are going to change. things will never change. I'm tired of your fake "I love you" and your real "goodbyes" all the time. by the way, the "I hate you, don't leave me" is regarding Borderline Personality Disorder. I really wish things would have worked out between us, but it is very apparent that is not what you want. And to think, I got Elizabeth to be able to stay with my niece on your birthday - but fuck it - fuck all of it.
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