2 hours went by during this entry... memory of none of it...
I don't know how I'm really doing right now. I doubt that Alisha will read any of these, which is fine - I know why I gave her the information.
I emailed Carlos twice today already, one more being a joke about how it was raining and that it would be pointless to do anything to his car while I was at the college earlier. The other being about my meeting with Alisha a little bit - regarding Robert mainly.
I broke down during that meeting, something I never end up doing. I'm overwhelmed about everything... to the point that right now I know I shouldn't think about any of it.
Leaving CRMH today I don't remember very much. I got to the college and came out of my blackout (not surprising).
Got coffee (was freezing and raining outside)... of course my mind wondered a lot while in that building... I went back into where the offices are so I could get my pin number - huge line - decided just to go back tomorrow morning. Really wasn't in the mood (or mindset) to be there standing in line while not feeling well.
I went to the security office and got Vancouver Police department's phone number... lost it somehow (have no idea where it went) and went to DSS office and they got it again from the security office.
I was going to call while at the college but I just couldn't. I felt like I was going to pass out so I sat down for awhile while drinking my coffee. Josh walked by and I stopped him and said hi - only for him to scare the hell out of me when I was leaving the college haha.
When I got back down to the main street, panic attack started when I saw a police car.
I managed to get home - don't remember the way home or the last 2 hours (its now 5:09 pm) and I did call Elizabeth and she's going to be here later when she gets off work - she knows what's going on but not in full detail yet.
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