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.x. This whole baby daddy thing

04/12/2015

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Baby Daddy
So....I dropped kiddos off at church this morning and dropped David off at his Dad's to work. I went back home with every intention of sleeping in a quiet house for 4 hrs until I needed to get up and get ready for work. FAIL. I just laid there....and thought.
And almost scared myself!

Like....after I got pregnant with Charity....Sebastien left a week later. After I got pregnant with Ezra....Mike denied him. NEITHER, have EVER been around.

I don't know how to have a baby with a man! And it's a scary thought. Like....last night he wanted to have sex....cause I just don't. Since I found out we were having a baby, I think we've had sex 3 times...(including last night). And I just wasn't in the mood. Like I was DRY as fuck! And he know that after I got pregnant with Charity that the thought of men would just make me sick....and I didn't want it. BUT, I love him, and I do want sex. But I'm so freaking tired. I've never been messed with while pregnant. I've never had to keep a man satisfied while pregnant.

I don't know how to take care of him while pregnant. I'm freaking out cause he'll be there when I'm giving birth. He'll be there through EVERYTHING....and honestly I am freaking out and WANT to run away. I don't know why. I love him. SO much. And I am so happy because I know he loves his kids. But I've never done this with another man. Never! WTF.

The Baby
March 21, 2015 - First faint positive
March 29, 2015 - First visit to E.R. for cramping. Levels were 1,300 and ultrasound showed a gestational sac.
April 3, 2015 - Second visit to E.R. for fluids. Levels were 5,600 and ultrasound showed gestational sac and yolk sac.
April 8, 2015 - First ultrasound at OBGYN office to make sure baby is okay, and hopefully found out my due date. Baby is great, due Date is December 3, and the heartbeat was 140.

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thanks.

I don't remember what my name used to be. sucks. lol

[xx BStar|0 likes] [|reply]

i had to read back a little bit.

sounds like David has a lot going on as well as you. Im sure as you get further along, you'll get more used to him being there and him not leaving.

xx B

[xx BStar|0 likes] [|reply]

That is crazy! I know David will be there for you. You seem to have a different relationship than the other two. You'll just have to get used to having the support.

[shelby :]|0 likes] [|reply]

Lol I'm probably the only person whining about it, but it's so much different, and to sit and think about it almost scares me. I've always made the sole decisions. Never needed any help. Never. And now I'm going to have to split decision making with him? WTF is that?

[Darenda|0 likes] [|reply]

I totally get what you mean. I wish I was the sole decision maker. The only time we ever argue is when it's about the baby. I wish I didn't have to have someone try to tell me what to do with my child lol. It's awesome to have help though, so that will be a change for you. You deserve help!

[shelby :]|0 likes] [|reply]

Awe! Don't be scared! It is a wonderful thing to share! =) The look on his face when he'll be able to feel the baby move. Seeing him hold you belly and talk to the baby. Him rubbing your tummy. The love, scared shitless looks he gives during the labor and that look in his eyes when he meets his baby....many things are so worth the wait! It's gonna be okay!

Sex wise...lube. a water based lube. Try to get something worth your money too. So like go to a shop. I don't like anything from Walmart or pharmacies. I only buy from my sisters sex shop. lol. =P

Plus, talk to him. Let him know about your worries. <3

[Fam!lyTimes6|0 likes] [|reply]

New situations can be scary! But you will adjust in time.

[Greta GarbageStar|0 likes] [|reply]

Dude you'll be fine. I had my last baby without a man around so I was a bit weirded out having my husband here this time. Sometimes, I don't want him near me at all, which is interesting, lol. He's fine with it though.
Your sex drive will come back (although probably to a lesser extent) and he's been round pregnant women before.

[Mojo Jojo|0 likes] [|reply]

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