.x.Time Alone? NO WAY!

03/19/2015

UGHHHG So you know, I feel like parents need time alone. My parents live in Wartburg (an hour or more away), and I don't always have gas to take them there, come back home, and 2 days later go back to pick them up and come back home. That would cost me about $40 in gas and I just don't have that money to spare. That also goes into the fact that I miss my parents dearly. I can talk to them all I want, but I can't go see them as much as I want. I need to get out of this hell hole Knoxville. And go back to Wartburg where there is fields and mountains, and an actual yard to run and play in! Fuck Knoxville. Anyways, so because of the money issue, I'm only able to get rid of the kids 2 weekends out of the month. Great right? Negative. Cause on those 2 weekends, we get his children. So that mean 0 time for me and David. Nothing! Zip!

So this week the kids were on Spring Break. So on Friday of last week when Ezra's apt was over we took mom and the kids back to Oak Ridge so that mom could take them home with her. She wanted to keep them for the week. WHAT?!?! Free at last. No kids!!!!

What the fuck could go wrong???? I'll tell you what. We have had his kids since mine left. So yesterday their mom's come to get them, and I'm like, "awesome time alone hell yes!"....negative AGAIN. Emmy stayed. She wanted me to teach her how to crochet. NO. I love you baby girl and I try to teach you all everything, but crochet is my thing. It's my time where all you girls are not up in my face. It's my me time and no one is taking that from me. But she stayed anyways. So guess what tomorrow is. FRIDAY! So we get his 3 other kids tomorrow. Out of 9 mother fucking days, I have not had 1 damn minute alone with my husband.

Are you serious!? And he doesn't care! "If they want to stay I'm not going to tell them no". She will be back in 2 fucking days. Do I not deserve time alone? Fuck it. I don't give 2 shits. I'm done trying to take him out to eat, or worrying about any alone time because I'll never get it. Ever. I'm done begging. He doesn't care about having that time and doesn't think it's that important, so why should I worry about it? Done.