This is my rant,
these are my thoughts,
the feelings that have been expressed here are real.
Do not mock me,
do not point your dirty little finger in my direction,
I WILL bite it off and spit it in your face...
Do not disrepect me.
This is my diary,
you are in my house,
respect it.
...
..
.
♥Entry Below♥
Some people, seriously!! What nerve, I say!!! I have given the world so much of me and still... no job = no money = no life. FTW?
All I need is a little love, nurturing, understanding, patience, someone to lean on for once. I need a shouldler, a crutch, a friend, someone who
is willing to give me the time of day to help me with my life, someone who's willing to do me a favor for once. Why is that such a rarity for me?
I mean, I have parents (who don't give a damn about me, for the most part), and I have a husband (who lives his life more for himself than for "us"),
"friends" (who seem to only come around or call when they want or need something from me), and last but not least, "karma" which I have tried to live
by, and from this point on===> I care nothing about because I have learned that "karma" is nothing more than a product of someone else's philosophical theory/belief
("karma helps those who help themselves_ ect..), in which I say that it's a bunch of hullabaloo because even though I've worked my ass off
to gain stability & to gain a bit of happiness in my life (for myself and for my family *even though I can't stand them most of the time), I'm still
stuck in the same shit hole, exactly where I started from. Fuck karma.
So in conclusion to what I have said in the previous paragraph, I believe I have come up with a solution to my problems. I am going to stop believing in
the people around me who "care" and focus more on finding my own personal inner strengths (I know they're in there some where) and I am going to
get things done all by myself. I will no longer make excuses for myself or for other people!!
Screw my dead beat parents!!! They can fuck right off of the face off the Earth for all I care, I don't need them anyway!!! Oh, and if anyone tries to stand in my way,
I'ma knock em' the fuck back to where they came from to begin with.
enD
-Jen
|