Anger-Management Issues, Hmm? | 01/25/2013 |
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25th January 2013, 3.57 PM.
 Anger-Management Issues, Hmm? Well. Today sucks.
So I finally got my wish.
I got a counsellor. And if I spelled that wrongly, maybe you'd be kind enough to tell me the correct spelling.
What happened? The root of the problem was actually Shorty. But let me explain. So. During Arabic period, Honeybee passed me a note. At that time, we were supposed to be doing a worksheet but I had no idea how to do it 'cause I didn't pay attention when the teacher was explaining. Now I feel like shit. It was all my fault actually. But anyway. I was reading her note when the replacement teacher walked up. She saw me reading the note and I quickly scrunched it up but I wasn't quick enough. She demanded for the note but I stubbornly kept it in my fist and stared at the table. It was Honeybee's personal problem and I did not want to share it with her. After a few minutes, the bell rang and the teacher had to go. All that time, even if I was really angry, I was crying at the same time, though, I tried my best not to. The next period was Qur'an and Honeybee came over to comfort me. By then, Ustaz Mustache (my Qur'an teacher, let's call him that) had already come. M&M had to go and butt into the problem. She told Honeybee to go back to her place even though she could clearly see that I was crying. I said, "Shut the eff up lah!" She ignored me and repeated what she said to Honeybee. I told her, "Shut your EFFING mouth up!" She just rolled her eyes and made a face at me. That did it. For the second time in my life, I touched 100% on my Anger Meter (the first time is in "Tempers, Trouble, And A Super Long Entry", one of my earliest entries). I suddenly found my body move out of my chair and quickly walked over to her and pulled her scarf like hell. I let out all the anger in me and pulled and pulled and pulled. Of course, I was only pulling for a few seconds, when Eye and Honeybee ran over and managed to control me. I was crying but I wasn't sad, I was angry. I wrote in my notebook to Honeybee: "I think I need a counseller" She wrote back, "Arabic Tutor" I think she thought that I meant tuition but I wasn't and I was so angry that time, I couldn't think and was confused. I wrote, "I don't have tuition" And she wrote, "Arabic is quite-" Now I think of it, it was probably before Ustaz Mustache came. Yeah, probably, 'cause that was why she stopped writing 'cause Ustaz came. Then when she came back, that was when M&M butted in. So she accompanied me to the toilet. I think our replacement teacher complained to our form teacher, who we will call Ms Drill, because Ms Drill came calling for me. We went into one of the other P6 classes (there are D, E, and F, but I won't make nicknames for them 'cause I don't think I'll be mentioning them a lot anyway) and we explained to her all that happened. Ms Drill asked us to follow her to P5 Apple Seeds since she was teaching them at the moment. She told us to wash our faces at the toilet and then go and cool down in her class while she was teaching. So, I saw my busmate there, Jane (not real name again) and she kept glancing at me in surprise. Honeybee started crying hard and afterwards, I found out that it was 'cause she thought that it was all her fault. Maybe, but the root was Shorty. See, the note she'd sent me was about how Shorty had sent her a note that said that she knew that Honeybee was jealous when she hung out with me or T.G but she didn't care and she called us Honeybee's 'so-called BFFs' and that she knew that she was Honeybee's enemy. Bullshit. She's full of bullshit. Didn't read that properly? I said that she. is. full. of. stinking. bullshit. Shitty bullshit. All she does is try to create problems in our BFFship. And this is not her first time either. Anyway. When we showed T.G though, it didn't affect her much. It was as if she took Shorty's side. She said something like, "Why you go and tell her that Honeybee was jealous????" HELLO! She didn't have any problem when I told her.
I'm really starting to think if T.G's a good BFF. BFFs are supposed to be there for you when you're having a hard time. Her? She runs away. And her excuses? "No, it's just that I get sick when I'm stressed!", "I just want to take my mind off it, lah.". Well, the first one is true, she does get sick when she's stressed but really? 'Taking her mind off' the problem that she's supposed to fix? Well, not this problem, but there are fights that were caused by her in the past and she doesn't ever bother to fix them.
Today sucks.
Good thing I have Bloop, Kytri's comics, my books, and Honeybee.
Hope you had a nice day, everybody. 
"Life is a rollercoaster." -Dreamer
P.S. I really think I have anger-management issues. Also, I'm not entirely sure how long the counselling thing will go.
P.P.S. I really want to apologise to the replacement teacher. I will. I'll apologise next week.
I'm full of shit too, right?
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