One Day At A Time...
Things are slowly getting easier. Got an email the other day from Master asking if he could come over for sex. Said he missed it, said he needed it, but said nothing of coming home. Said nothing about trying to work things out. Won't even tell me WHY he moved out. I told him no. I felt horrible, part of me still feels in servitude to him. I know it's over, I know I'm not anymore, but I still have the desire to please him so strongly. BUT, I have to watch out for myself right now. He has crushed me entirely. I have to remember that. Honestly, I'm rather proud of myself.
I'm considering changing things here around...Possibly easing my way out of anonynimity. We'll see I guess. Part of me wants to - there are so many people here I read before that I've found now and I'd love to rekindle some of those friendships.
Another downside to all of this...My eatting disorder. Things have taken a sharp turn for the worse - I've lost around 25 pounds in the last couple weeks. I know I shouldn't do this to myself, but god it helps.
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I know your situation is hard, but never let a guy dictate your life. Even if you "served" him when you were together, remember, you are not together anymore. So look out for number one, thats you.
sweetie, you need to look out for yourself. i'm proud of you that you turned him down. you shouldnt feel like you HAVE to "serve" him. you are your own person now and he is his own person. you need to look out for you and your children. be safe please.
many people would have gone back, you're a smart/strong woman.
