'Why am I listening to you anyway?...you're a virgin who can't drive...'~Clueless
Okay soo I've been around...but only briefly....I hate writing things out with my cell on here cause while I'm writing the internet cuts off and I lose the stuff I wrote or I don't get all of it and really don't care to re-write stuff...lol..and since I have no computer...this is a problem for me...lol. I used to be a good lil diary entry writer back when I had a computer but thats no longer the case...
Oh and my comments haven't been making it through either...My family bothers me alot sometimes or I just end up having to go somewhere...my cell is off...I don't pay it...theres no real reason for me to pay it to be honest...no one calls or texts......lol...unless its my family...which gets annoying since its usually cause their bored and they want something...lol.
Anywayz...Soo I'm having a bitch of a time not swooning after Al...and its really annoying. Now he has a instagram and I'm soo curious but I don't have one...I can't even find my camera...and even if I did...I lent my batteries for it out and never got them back...those batteries are hard to find and kinda out of range of my budget...and well as much as I do love taking pictures and have been wanting an instagram account...now it just feels wrong...like I'm no longer getting it for myself like I previously wanted before he got one..like he's my motivation and thats just ugh...yeah..I'm not gonna do it...if later I decide to have one...it'll be because I wanted one and not because he has one...soo I'm just not gonna do it right now..But OMG he just posted a pic with his niece and they look soo cute! I had been wondering how big she was now. He was always soo cute when he'd talk about her. X3 ....hehe. He's the adoring uncle.......its just adorable. Still...I can't make an account anyway...my cell is breaking down...and I'm too broke to buy a new one...lol.
Other things...I dreamt the guy from Mcdonalds...:/..I'm not sure its because my grandpa said a month ago that one day that boy is gonna say he likes me or because I think he's kinda cute but like I would never be all 'swoony' over him...thats my cousins' 'boo'...lol. And its just wrong...but in my dream he was interested...when I woke I was all 'oh hell no...you are not gonna crush on another guy...! Al is enough...besides you really don't like him like that...he's cute but in an induring kinda way...Ooo and I LOVE teasing my cousin...} ...hehe...but my grandpa thinks the guy likes me...I don't think so. He's just really good at his job and figures I'm crushing on him soo he's being extra nice to me...besides its his job to be nice to people and I was a regular thanks to my grandpa's need for Mcdonalds ice caramel mocha...Soo yeah he says 'Hi' and waves at me...and asks how I am and asks what has me around...etc....but yeah...he probably thinks I like him...thanks to my reactions to my cousin liking him...which...I end up smiling alot Alot when I pull up and he's the guy at the window...and I come off awkward because I know my cousin likes him and I'm trying to figure if I can tell him that or not...(not mean...she totally wants me to....cause shes a chicken...lol. I'm not one to talk but for miss confident-hair flippin-giggle-girl...its kinda funny...).
Soo I was on youtube...and I came across some stuff about 'How you can tell if a shy girl likes you...'...and well since the norm doesn't fit me...I figured I take a look...and lol....it does....I learned something from it...I am the shy girl.(no shit...). Soo yeah I can speak to any guy fine...I can even sound flirtatious...but I'm not...ha...! To know I like someone I have to be painfully bashful,blushy, awkward, and can't seem to talk. Like I draw blanks as to what to say...(believe me this kills me on a daily...). Now with Al...I could talk to him...when it came to work related things...with people around...BUT...if it was just me and him...and I needed to give him my number...ahem for work reasons...I must of turned every shade of red....my heart raced...I felt like I was gonna faint due to the elevated blood pressure surging through my body and for some reason, pooling in my cheeks...I was all 'umm..I got a... cellphone..soo...uh..I guess..umm...I should give it to...umm.. you...?...'...my voice was all shakey...and well he just stared with an amused look...and was like 'yeah...sure...'....I gave it to him....and he was like 'You want me to call you? Soo you know that it's me?'...I was beyond able to deal soo I said 'no...its okay...uh..I'll know...heh...ok bye!' and I left...lol.(>_ |
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