Operation Impending Doom
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Escape
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Welcome to Bloop. =)
It sounds like you've had an incredibly rough year. I'm sorry to hear of all the stuff you've been through. I hope 2011 is better for you. =)
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[lithium layouts. ]
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Stuff and things
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 This entry make sit hard for me to read... check your autoparagraphs... see if they got turned off by mistake... because I think that's what probably happened.
IF you go into edit entry and click on some tab... you'll see autoparagraphs on 9or off....can't remember)... I would turn them on.
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[Randomosity's.Heart ]
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I do think it's BS that you have to get approved by your psychiatrist, but then again there are varying levels of depression, I guess. But when I consider that, people unfit to work in a job like that wouldn't even bother enrolling in the school or wouldn't be able to well in the courses. Buuut, you could be right, when you live with it for a long time, maybe it doesn't seems as bad as it is, because it's just... normal. That is a really good point actually, I'm always wondering why my husband is soooo supportive when I'm having a depressive phase when I think I'm just being stupid and that he should be mad at me for sleeping for 11 hours/ not doing anything around the house/ slacking in school.
I like your dream, yo! It's a good dream, I think. Some people think I am crazy because of the way I frame my goal: I would like the luxury of growing and making my own food. Normal people of course think I am insane, and that I should let Costa Ricans grow my bananas and Chileans grow my avocados, but I really think that to have enough space and time to know exactly what goes into your body... that is definitely a luxury to me. You want an aviary, I want chickens and goats. And pigs, but husband is not quite on board with that, yet, but he will be lol. Maybe a couple of cows way way out there. Okay, I won't write out my entire dream in your comment. I think maybe you've inspired me to make an entry like that, though 
Phew, your aunt sounds like some people I know. I used to live with my ex, with his mom, stepdad, and aunt. They were all alcoholics but only his mom liked to get drunk and start shit. Allllll the time, picking fights. She wouldn't even remember the next day (whether or not she just pretended not to, or really blacked out, I don't know). When we broke up, he didn't tell his mom, and I was looking for a place to live. One night I came home and his mom was trashed, and accusing me of cheating on him (because I was never home anymore and she didn't know we broke up). I was so mad about the whole situation, and of course that irritation from dealing with her on a daily basis being built up... I got in her face and yelled. So close, I must have gotten spittle on her. She kicked me out since she didn't know I was moving anyway. Urrrrgh, I just have so many stories about so many alcoholics in my life... I just have no tolerance for them anymore. sigh.
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[mixie]
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Why I Hate AA
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I feel very sorry for the people that have to attend AA where you are from. I know for damn sure it's nothing like that where I'm from. I attend AA and I enjoy having people in my life that have dealt with addiction but I still hold myself responsible for my own fuck ups. I've never had anyone tell me who my higher power can be. I've never had anyone in AA look down on me for not believing in the traditional idea of God.
I totally dare you to go to an AA meeting in a less ignorant closed minded area and perform your own tests again
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[Alyssa.]
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Why I Hate AA
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 Hmmm I've never heard of an AA meeting being like that. I know several people who've been in AA and all of them describe it very differently...I suppose the atmosphere in the meeting depends on the people attending/running it. Maybe you could look into going some where else for a meeting?
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[JustAnotherLostSoul]
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Why I Hate AA
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You have an interesting perspective on AA... I'm not an alcoholic and never will be.... but my parents are... but I can certainly understand your views on the subject. Certainly. I had a therapist once... that did this therapy called "The Work" I believe (http://www.thework.com/thework.php) and the problem I had with it was that you eventually came back around to making the issue all about you and placing the blame on yourself.
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[Randomosity's.Heart]
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From OD: Debriefing
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omg. This totally breaks my heart. I know it's not nearly the same thing but it took me back to when my cousin died and I couldn't read the rest of your entry, only skimmed, so much of it read like me when he died. So sorry about your loss. I hadn't smoked for nearly five months before my cousin died (because of an upcoming court date) but gosh that was totally the first thing I did after buying a handle of navy rum.
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[mixie]
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Why I Hate AA
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I think I love you.
I have made EXACTLY all these same arguments. Though I am not an alcoholic, I have been to meetings with friends, both ones that believe in the program and others that go intermittently between trying to deal with their problem in other ways, and sometimes not dealing with it at all.
I hate AA. BUT. It helps some people. People do and believe crazier shit than God helping you through your "disease" of alcoholism. I just wish it didn't try to pass itself off as something it's not- or rather, try to claim it isn't something it is.
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[mixie]
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Why I Hate AA
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AA saved my mom's life and a lot of my friend's lives. I've been to many of the meetings and really enjoyed them. Everyone was very accepting and no one was snarky or pushed anything. No one ever called my mom when she missed a meeting. The AA in my home town was very adamant about holding yourself responsible for your own recovery.
I guess the quality of the meetings depends on the people who attend, so it would make meetings across the country different from one another. I'm sorry you do not like it. I wish you the very best in your recovery and hope that you find a program that is more to your liking! 
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[.Kismet.]
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Pop Quiz!
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And I feel ya on the mental distresses.... I've going through a moderate depression myself.... though today I'm feeling 'okay'.
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[Randomosity's.Heart]
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Pop Quiz!
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I hated doing paperwork when I had my medical jobs.... I mean I swear the paperwork you have to do for a medical job is like 10 times worse than anything out there..
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[Randomosity's.Heart]
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NoJoMo #3
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 I wish I knew how to help you... I had a friend who I didn't know had bipolar and that as in HS... and he would write me often after I went off to basic and the last letter I got from him he was contemplating hurting himself and confessed he had bipolar to me..
I have not heard from him since and I've done internet searches to only come up empty.
I"m sorry you deleted your last entry. (*SUPER CYBER HUGS*)
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[Randomosity's.Heart]
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NoJoMo #3
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ARGH! I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED MY LAST ENTRY SOMEHOW! F*CK! I'm an idiot. goodnight everyone.
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[~Tak~]
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NoJoMo #1
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 ryc: thanks for your opinion! I'm getting mixed "reviews" and I agree with both sides...which is why I haven't made a decision yet.
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[JustAnotherLostSoul]
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Stressathon
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(That was me, by the way!)
http://odrefugee.blogspot.com/
*Cookies*
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Stressathon
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Hope today went well for you!
Thanks for your recent comments. If you have any psychological insights to share about my dream, feel free to share 'em. (I think it was just my mind passing the time while waiting for me to wake up and feed it more sugar, but... I bet every crazy person thinks the same thing at some point, eh?)
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*hugs*.
Thank you... I have many more on FB that are posted there...