Well,Second Entry in such a short moment, I didn't want to overload so fast in the first one, but I don't know what to say, So I'll jumble it here, Im fucking scared, as I said before, I don't know what the hell to do in life, I love my girlfriend, Im just scared of being rejected, I know she loves me, I know she does, But what if she doesnt feel that way, Im scared ill be rejected by her and her friends, Im scared ill Fail again, and Ill be stuck, Im like a rat in a wheel, the same damn things happen over and over and I cant break the cycle, I have a good spot of happiness, my cheese, the cheese dissipates, Rat is sad, Rat continues to run, hoping cheese will come again, Ive been so crushed before that Im scared it will continue to happen...and it will make my life a living hell if i can't break it, I'm stuck with this damn curse, Kathryn, She is my saviour, but ive so many fears, issues and stuff I need to work through and Im scared ill scare her away...I don't honestly know what to do, I act tough, and BRave, but in reality, im a coward, a Scared feeble coward, My Facade will hurt me in the end, But i pray i have enough courage and strength to confront what life will throw at me, I'm not exactly sturdy.. But what else can I say, I have to work soon, my Manager that is closing is an ass, he rushes the crap out of me =\, its not my fault, I cant go faster than the damn dishwasher, I hate life...The Cycle continues, Watch me burn, Watch me crash...but, Im sure that Kathryn will break the cycle.. |
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