i'll give up my life for you...

01/19/2009

~~...if you want it...~~

i miss chaz
im really going insane.
after seeing him everyday for like...5 days straight...then not seeing him at all for almost a week.
it sucks
awww, and i miss little skylar.
hes such a little cutie.
if i ever have children, i hope they're as cute but not as crazy as that kid!!
ugh.
my weekend was weird.
friday-got drunk.
like usual.
(:
ha.
woke up saturday around 11:30.
watched ever after
i love that movie.
its a good one.
then my mom and vince showed up around 1:30.
gregg and pj were still sleeping.
as soon as pj got up, he drank a beer and started all over again!
i couldnt believe it.
then they wanted me to start drinking around 3 or so.
i said FUCK THAT!!
i started drinking around 5 (:
haha.
i only had one drink though.
then vince started getting shitty.
so we went home and watched hancock
its a good one.
uhm, and then we watched something, i really dont even know it was like 48 hours or soemthing.
then we watched two and a half man!
thats a great one!
i love it!
then i think we watched orange county choppers.
yup. then we went to bed.
hell yeah. it was a good time for a bit
but idk.
i didnt do nearly as bad as i thought i would on my exams...
except my german.
S:
i did really bad.
REALLY.
whatever though.
im so tired.
i wanna go home.
actually, i wanna go see chaz.
mannnn.

oh.
by the wayy.
im slightly freaking out right now cause..
well...
something happened last sunday.
and i need to prolly go to the store within the next 3 weeks and get something to check something.
im scared.
i am hoping like hell...its a no.
but chances are...
its probably a yes.
and thats what scares me the most.
im so much more scared right now than i have ever been in my whole life.
S:
i dont know what i would do if i am.
i dont know what to do.