reality is a hard pill to swallow and it can sometimes

01/21/2009

~~missing.~~

baby, i miss you.
its been too long...
wayy too long.
a week.
im supposed to go see him tonight.
i dont know if ill be able to though.
i just dont want my mom to be tripping out on me...
she tends to do that...
a lot
but i guess i cant really blame her.
ive been pretty much irresponsible lately.
i'm not acting like myself
i dont know whats come over me.
i want so badly to make my parents proud of me but...
i feel like im not setting the right priorities right now.
i feel like i dont want to do well in school...i just want to party and hang out with friends.
but i know thats not what is important right now.
im so scared that im not going to graduate.
i have well over 70 absences.
S:
i dont know what im going to do if i dont graduate.
i guess i wouldnt be able to join the marines...
id either have to re-do the 12th grade or go get my GED.
which, i DEFFINITLY dont want to do...
damn....
the old me's dead and gone, dead and gone