Nervous

So if you've been reading me, you know that my husband and I have been trying to have a baby for a long while now. I've been going to a fertility specialist for maybe 9 months or so, with no luck.

So this month my cycles have been crazy, I've had 2 within about 2 weeks.  Boo. My doctor said he wants to wait until I get my next cycle in Jan. and we will try again. But they also set me up for another consultation with him in Jan. That usually means that they need to make a new plan for you. I've had 2 consults so far and 2 new plans. I know that the next step in In-vitro. And I don't think I'm happy about that.

My insurance covers 4 IVF's for a lifetime. So if this is what they want me to do next, I pray to God above that it works on the first shot. 

I'm very scared that it's come down to this. I never thought I'd have to have something like this. It frustrates me to no end know that everyone in my family can pretty much just fall asleep next to their husbands and wake up pregnant lol. I'm not sure why this has happened to me, but I guess there is no use in complaining about it because there isn't anything I can do about it either.

I work with a doctor who is in a similar position to me. It's funny because I've known her sister for almost 10 years, and then she came and started working at my clinic. I thought it was pretty cool. Anyway, back on the subject. The doctor is married and she has 4 kids from a previous relationship. Her husband has 2 kids from his last relationship. And now they want one together. So they have been trying for a while too. I like to talk to her about it, because she feels my frustrations. But with her, she will get pregnant, then lose it. That stinks.

Ok, this entry is super long and I'm sorry. I hope you made it through and if you did I'm glad. You guys are the only people that I really have to talk to about all of this lol! <3