Breakups are sooooo hard

11/22/2010

I recently broke up for good with my bf of 3 yrs. Actually he broke it off with me. We had been having problems but were still hanging out and things were going okay. Not perfect but we had talked about how much we meant to each other. I knew that things weren't great but I got a tattoo of my bf's initial. I truly cared for him and I didn't think it would be such a bad thing. I went over to his house and I was spending the night. I decided to show him and he totally blew up. He said he couldn't believe I had done such a thing and that I should have consulted it with him first. I really just couldn't believe that he was actually mad at me and was hurt. That night I stayed for a bit, eventually fell asleep and just felt totally uncomfortable. I ended up leaving at like 3am that day. I haven't talked to him ever since except once through email. That was 4 day ago. In the email I sent him I told him how hurt I was by his reaction. I told him that I felt like he was a bullshitter. Everything he said obviously didn't mean anything. He emailed me back that I was selfish for getting that tattoo and to leave him alone. I didn't respond to his email, blocked him from my phone and haven't heard from him ever since. I went out this weekend hoping to keep my mind off things. Today I came to work and I have way too much thinking time on my hands. I constantly thinking about him. I know I need to just move on but it is so hard. I know that only time will help but how much time???? If anyone has any advice please let me know what I can do to help the process along or to not be as difficult.