Well its now been over a week since the break up. I have talked to my ex through text here and there and you know that saying....you dont know what you have till its gone...that is so true. I really messed up. I had a good thing... a really good thing and instead of appreciating it...i came up with things that were wrong. He is very upset with me and at first said he needed time but after our last text he's pretty much done. This is probably the worst break up I've ever had. Unless, it just feels that way because I'm in it right now. I feel like my heart is broken or cut or bruised or something. I feel so empty. I feel like my heart is not even beating right. I try to do things to keep myself preoccupied but it only helps for a bit. I tried going out and drinking with my sisters and friends and its only helps for a little...but not very much. In fact the last time I think I felt worse the next day. I feel sad all the time. Last night I even went as far as taking a muscle relaxer so I could fall asleep. I go to sleep and wake up sad. At work I'm constantly thinking of him. I told him I would leave him alone and not text/call/email him anymore but that if he changed his mind I would be waiting with open arms. I really think its over this time though. How do I get through this??? How can I make it easier to deal with? Should I see a doctor and get some meds? I've been exercising to try and keep my mind off it but it only helps a little...the only upside I can think of is that I've lost weight...woohoo...NOT...im not even all that cheery about that. Any comments, suggestions, advice is completely appreciated!!!! and thanks for all the comments everyone!!! |
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