I'm sure eventually people will start to get tired of hearing me cry about my problem so I apologize to all those people but I feel like venting helps a little. I just hate feeling like this. I feel like a zombie just going through every day motions...getting up in the morning, going to the gym, making my kids dinner, watching t.v., going to work. Last night I went to the gym with my sister to do a kickboxing class and its so weird because even though it got a little better as the class went by...even my rythym was off. My mind wanders and thinks of him, of us, and it makes me sad. I'm sitting here at my desk at work and I just wanna cry. I have prayed over and over for god to take my pain away. I've lost my appetite and even lost some weight (that should be a good thing and I'm not even all that happy about that). When will this pain go away? |