bipolar

08/06/2009

Rich has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

This is a good thing. Now, at last, maybe he'll get the help he needs. He is NOT the man I know right now, and as frustrated and upset I get... I know that he must be suffering so much.

It makes perfect sense - I don't really know how I didn't click earlier, but I think sometimes you can be so personally involved that you can miss the signs that are right in your face - he goes from deep depression and not being able to get out of bed to fucking everyone in the world and driving his car into walls... it's pretty classic, now I think about it.

His mum told me, she said they're NOT sectioning him - they reckon it might do more harm than good, better to try and give him a stable home environment.

He came on the phone, and I asked him how he felt - "scared" was his answer, sounding like a lost little boy.

"I know - but this is a good thing - you're not in it alone anymore."

"I never was. Thanks for... not giving up."

I'll never give up.