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Beyond Belief
by A RedSox Fan

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671 Ferguson, Hanley Pablo, work, website frustrations etc nov 24-25 2014

11/25/2014

671 white cop no charges RedSox Hanley Pablo shh about work11 24-25 2014

I will admit, I was not glewed to the TV and don’t know all the facts of what happened in Ferguson MO.
I understand a white officer shot and killed a black man, who was 2 days away from starting his freshman year at college, in self defense.

History repetes itself again…
It sorta reminds me of Rodney King, Los Angeles, 1992.

I have one question that I want you to think about and but then think about it from a different view.
Was this a race issue?
Now from my view… what if race didn’t exhist? From a blind person, although there are cultural differences aren’t we all humen? Don’t we all bleed the same color?

Why can’t we all just get along?


MY BOSTON RED SOX HEAT UP THE OFF SEASON

Today, Monday, November 24th, 2014 my Boston Red Sox signed not just one but two all star players to insane contracts.

Hanley Ramirez, who the Red Sox actually drafted and went through our minor league system before being traded to the Florida Marlins in a block buster deal, where the Red Sox got Josh Becket and Mike Lowell, both were contributers in the 2007 World Series victory….I digress…
The Red Sox signs Hanley Ramirez to a 4 year 88 m contract with an option for a 5th season. He’s a short stop but will be asked to move into the outfield to play left field.
In his 9 years (and 2 games in 2005) he has 191 home runs, 261 stolen bases with a 300 average and a 373 on base percentage. He will be a great upgrade to our offense.

That signing was totally out of leftfield (no pun) and I’m a bit skeptical but we’ll see what happens.

Later on in the day, the Red Sox made another big splash, signing 3 time champion, 3rd base man, Pablo Sandoval to a contract similar to Hanley. I’m not crazy about this signing but I can understand why they did it. Red Sox need some offense and he will provide some.

Pablo Sandoval, nickname “kung fu panda” for his althetic moves despite a very large frame. Will be our 3rd base man.
His career numbers are as followed



6 years 41 games, he has 102 home runs and a batting average of 294 and On Base percentage of 346. I’m not crazy about the home runs and RBI’s consindering the oney we’re giving him so …he better bring us back to the promise land.

NOW, moving Hanley to play left field, we have a huge log jam in the outfield. Craig, Cespedes, Castillo, Bradley, Betts and Victorino. This is going to set up a block buster trade for pitching. Should be very interesting.


SHHH about work

I have not told anyone yet, but I got an email from the person who oversees all the houses today.
She wants me to call the IT person of our company about how to get the company’s network to be accessable for me. = more hours? Maybe a few but not enough to go waving my hands like I just don’t care… It may give me 2 maybe 4 more hours at most but I’ll never have a full time job with this company.

WTF!
I got an email from match.com for a 72 hour free membership.
I clicked on the link in the email.
It said to pick a subscription and if I do not cansel before the 72 hour window, I will be charged the subscription I chose. I picked 6 months…I was going to cansel before my 72 hours was up anyways.

I tried to use the website. It was very frustrating, confusing and frankly, overwhelming.
The graphics on the page were not labeled, there are letters randomly placed, which I don’t know what they meant. AND I could not change what to search for because it wasn’t pulldown menus or edit boxes. I don’t know what they were.

I canceled it Monday night, knowing I had till 6PM Tuesday. I got an email saying that they were sad to see me go but my membership would remane active for the term of the subscription. I was like…what? I scrolled down and see I’m charged for a 6 months subscription. I tried calling but it was after hours. I called today (now Tuesday morning) and after talking to someone and they supervisor, there was nothing they could do. Once a subscription is taken out, it is charged and there is no refund. If we go by the fact that I work 4 hours a week. That subscription cost me about 3 weeks worth of my pay.

Other people-things are pissing me off this morning too but whatever.

I’m starting to not care about life any more.
There, I just said it and now I feel even worse.

And damn me for missing someone.
That someone sent me a FB message that goes as follows

found a joke on a picture that i think you'd enjoy. not sure if your program will be able to read the pictures text, so i'll type it out for you
Researchers for the Massachusetts Turnpike Authority found over 200 dead crows near greater Boston recently, and there was concern that they may have died from Avian Flu. A Bird Pathologist examined the remains of all the crows, and, to everyone's relief, confirmed the problem was NOT Avian Flu. The cause of death appeared to be vehicular impacts.

However, during the detailed analysis it was noted that varying colors of paints appeared on the bird's beaks and claws. By analyzing these paint residues it was determined that 98% of the crows had been killed by impact with trucks, while only 2% were killed by an impact with a car.

MTA then hired an Ornithological Behaviorist to determine if there was a cause for the disproportionate percentages of truck kills versus car kills.

The Ornithological Behaviorist very quickly concluded the cause: when crows eat road kill, they always have a look-out crow in a nearby tree to warn of impending danger.

The conclusion was that while all the look-out crows could say "cah," none could say "truck."

She not only thought of me. Not only thought to tell me about it but then typed out the entire thing for me. Do you know who else would do that for me? I’ll give you a hint, NO ONE. One of a zillion reasons I love this person. Sorry

I’m feeling more and more lonely every day.
My best asked me to go with him and two other guys to see Dumb and Dumber 2. I had no interest.
ME: that’s a stupid movie
Him: exactly
ME: I don’t want to go see it
HIM: why? Just because it’s not a baseball movie?
Me: yes John, that’s the exact reason. (with sarcastic anger in my voice)

The “silver line” in the sky are so miniscule compared to all the negative people and crap around me.
It’s true. Surround yourself with good people and good things will happen. Flip that.


Speaking of negative crap. Before I went out to Arizona in Sept, she was planning on me coming back for the week of Thanksgiving which is, this week. It’s her birthday week and my family split up for the holiday. So of course, I’m pissed off about that too and the entire experience. I gave and I gave and I got nothing back. This guy who is probably her BF by now, didn’t buy her anything. All he did was get stuff from her storage and help set it up for her and she was so happy about that, she tagged him and thanked him on FB, saying it was the best gift she could have gotten. I know that you don’t have to buy things to make people happy but to go over the top about it compared to everything I did for her and the most I got was a “thank you” in person.

I just want things to change. I try and I try and all I get back is a door slammed in my face, charged for things I didn't want, made fun of, be told I can't do things directly or intdirectly because of my disability, love someone who doesn't feel the same but still is thoughtful-nice to me and all I want is to find a special lady who will love me genuinely, a job to pay bills and so I can get off of SSI and move on from my parent's house and start the next chapter of my life.

I have family, some friends (I guess) a roof over my head, food in my belly and clothes on my back. I'm just missing a special lady, self worth and happiness.

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I think it has been turned into a race issue when race really had nothing to do with it. It was a split second decision made by a cop... it happened to be the wrong one.

[twistedlady|0 likes] [|reply]

I had to share your joke with Jacob....he loved it!

[~Just the 3 of Us~Star|0 likes] [|reply]

I really think you should contact Match.com again. Tell them that you'll fight the charge with your bank. Tell them that you'll sue them. Throw the book at them! "The squeaky wheel gets the grease."

[xo heatherStar|0 likes] [|reply]

The looters and that whole situation pisses me off. You don't charge at a cop and expect them not to retaliate. Same goes for the kid in Cleveland. He pulled a bb gun on a cop. Some of those bb guns look like real guns. He got shot because he pulled out a weapon, just like Michael Brown was killed because he was being belligerent and charged a cop. People need to learn that no matter what your race is, you need to be held responsible for your actions. And what makes me more mad is, why do they only riot when it's a black guy killed. White people, Mexicans, Asians, Indians, etc are killed every day. Where are the rioters then? Kids are even killed. Innocent children. I don't see them burning things to the ground for them. But as soon as a black man is killed, all hell breaks loose. I call bullshit!

[Mrs. Evans|0 likes] [|reply]

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