A match made in Boston

You're a fantastic poet, you know that?

Wow, that was a really beautiful poem :0)

thats good

Simply*Carlise

That was an amazing poem. Absolutely amazing.

~*Jodi*~

ryc - Oh, yes, I know who mother goose is, but when you said the real mother goose, I was a little bit confused. lol. So, she is buried in Boston then?

Yes, I am a tough cookie. I guess that's why I don't take any crap. lol.

~*Jodi*~

Yes, Shiksa is the word. I kind of like being that. It makes me seem exotic or something. lol.

~*Jodi*~

ryc: haha i know! gosh, you did?! i'm jealous! i'm definitely finding my way to a concert this year.

I would like to know everything that you want to tell me about you. what do you look like? What do you like to do besides listen to music and watch sports? What kind of personality are you? When is your birthday? um... let me think while you answer those.

~*Jodi*~

ryc - You are incredibly creative and talented. You think on a different level in some ways to be able to put an entry into song lyrics, although it certainly fit. lol.

~*Jodi*~

lol - I see that. You're not one in a million, certainly. Just one of a few. I'm not really doing much at work right now...My mom's company is having a meeting here on the campus of my college (where I work) where they are about to announce her company is closing, so I am waiting on that to be done so that I can talk to her because I am sure that she's going to be upset. My ex (the one I was with for 7 yrs) also works there, so I told both of them to come find me when the meeting is over. There is supposed to be a press conference when it's over at 10am (which I'm central time, obviously) so I'm just reading my horoscope until then because my boss is in a meeting, and my job is boring and while he's out of the office I don't do jack. =)

~*Jodi*~

ryc - Yes, I know that my mom will be okay. I am a very optimistic person so I know that everything works out exactly as it is supposed to work out, and that everything happens for a reason. I try to find the good in things and the bright side.

I don't take your comment as rude. I guess you did not know that I had had a boyfriend for 7 years. We broke up a couple of years ago, after my car accident where I broke my back and sustained a lot of internal injuries, and herniated a lot of discs, and have a lot of nerve damage. I have a lot of pain and stuff. Gotta go talk to them. BRB.

~*Jodi*~

ryc - well, my mom's plant will close in 60 days, but her job will not be lost, because she works in inside sales at the customer service mgr, but my ex's job will be lost in 60 days. I am sad for him. He came to see me. The guy that I broke up with him for also works there, and he was outside and will be losing his job as well but i do not feel sorry for him because he was a selfish jerk. lol. But Kerry (my ex) goes, "there goes your boy, Luke" and I said "That is not my boy" lol. At least he can joke about it now, because he almost lost his job over it when it happened a few years ago and I know that I did him so wrong in that instance, but things happen I guess, and I shouldn't have done that but there were alot of things surrounding that...we were miserable. I'd just had that wreck. and my grandfather had just been diagnosed with terminal cancer, and my mom wanted me to dump him and go out with luke and it was just one mess after another. and when you're young and you've been with someone since you were 21 and you know that you don't want to be with someone for the rest of your life then it's not a good idea to continue to waste his time, I suppose.

and no, I would not let you drive my car. I am sure that you would be careful, and all, but until they make cars with auto-pilot like airplanes, I doubt that's a good idea - and even then, you'd probably need a copilot in case something went wrong. lol.

~*Jodi*~

rym - p.s. a question, how come good guys finish last? if they finish at all? and bad boys get all the fun?

What do you mean by that? Good guys don't always finish last. In fact, they generally finish first when it comes down to the grand scheme of things. In the end, they get what really matters. They always finish first. They hold out for what's important, and that's good.

What do you mean by bad boys getting all the fun? What kind of fun do bad boys get that you want? Are you sure that you want that kind of fun anyway? Bad boys don't end up getting what really matters. They don't want it and they don't appreciate it anyway. So they throw it away if it is even offered to them - and usually, even if it is offered to them - it is not of good quality, if that makes any sense. Because they are not of good quality, really.

There's a difference between being good, bad, and decent. I'm not always good, I'm not always bad, but I am a decent, kind, genuine, loving, caring, funny, fun-loving, thoughtful, sympathetic, understanding, intelligent down-to-earth, real, open-minded person. I have good qualities and bad qualities, both of which I embrace about myself. I love who I am, for who I am, and know that I am who I am for a reason. I don't always do what's right. I don't always do what's wrong. I do what's right for me at that moment, I guess. Sometimes hindsight shows that I've done the 'wrong' thing, but in that moment, it was right, because everything happens for a reason, at that time for a reason. And every person crosses your path for a reason. And I believe that I am in your life for a reason and vice versa.

And really, my what I want my legacy to be when I am gone is for people to say, "I was a better person for having known her." I aim to make a difference in every person's life with whom I have any contact - in person, online, or however. I am unique, and I know that. I am a rare find, and I know that. I don't know why I am single, but I have embraced that because for right now, it is what it is, and that's what is meant to be at this point in time.

Life is full of wonder and you never know what the next turn on this rollercoaster of a journey may bring you. It's exciting sometimes, scary sometimes, but in the end, it's all very worthwhile. I may not be happy with every aspect of my life, but I can say that I am happy with who I am. I am a work in progress, and I believe the unexamined life is not worth living. There is so much to learn... My diary title is "Ancora Imparo" means I am still learning, and I will do that until my ride comes to an end.

~*Jodi*~

ryc - yeah, i don't really think nursing is for me. i don't know why. just not my thing i guess.

~*Jodi*~

ryc - What do you mean that I was being contradictory in my note versus the entry?

I think that when you meet a girl you shouldn't look for a potential date and go the "friends first" route. You should simply go the "friends" route without wondering about something happening later on. If something happens later on down the line then that's the way that things are. Maybe the girls are being serious when they say that they don't want to ruin the friendship. I have friends I've said that to, and even though they want more, I just do not have those feelings for them and I know that even casual sex with them would completely ruin the friendship.

Yes, I can certainly see that you love baseball. You have to love something, I guess. I have pets. I like sports, but can't say that I love sports more than anything. I don't know what I do love more than anything. I have my own issues and problems. Everyone does, I suppose. I just try to recognize them and accept them. Some people act like they're perfect. I don't do that.

~*Jodi*~

I am glad that I am making you think in different ways. That is always good. I love doing that with people. It's like opening their minds to a whole different way of thinking, and that's awesome. I am very glad to do it.

Yes, I have friends that are married and have houses and children. I don't really envy them, though. Some of them are happy and some of them are not. Realistically, married life is not all that it's cracked up to be. Having children isn't either. I probably view it all differently than you do, though. Having a bunch of bills isn't great either. LOL. I know because I struggle just to make ends meet, and it's not easy at all. You don't really want that kind of life.

You have a lot to offer someone when the right person comes along.

I know that you want a relationship, and you don't want to sleep around - and yes, that is what I do while I wait for someone that I would consider having a relationship with to come along. But you don't want to do what I do. And I don't know that you could do what I do and not become somehow emotionally invested in the situation and end up hurt over it. I think that somehow when/if you like a girl then you probably grow attached to her. Can you have absolute no-strings attached sex? I mean, what I do isn't right for everyone, and I wasn't trying to be contradictory about it. It may not be right for you. It might be. Only you know that.

I liked the quote. I love quotes, and that is very true. I have been in a room full of men that I did not like, but I have also been in a room with only one person who at the time was perfect for me.

~*Jodi*~

I just checked my email and saw your pictures, and think that you are adorable.

~*Jodi*~

You are very welcome.

I hope that you can find a way to apply for the job that you want.

Do you live in their condo or do you live with them? It sounds like an awesome place to live, that's for sure. If I lived somewhere with a pool and was across the street from the beach, it would be hard to get me to leave the house. lol.

~*Jodi*~

It sounds like a wonderful place.

You should ask for how much money you want, not how much you expect to get.

~*Jodi*~

I understand your predicament with the salary. You don't know what they are going to be able to pay though. They could have budgeted $50K to pay someone and you ask for $35K so they're going to pay you $35K, even though they would have paid you $50K if you'd asked for it.

I do look for other jobs, but I can't just take any job. I have applied, but I am over-qualified so I don't get hired. They can't pay me what they think that I would want to be paid because I have a Bachelor's degree. Nobody wants to hire someone over-qualified because they will usually leave the job.

I have to be careful about what job I can take because I have to have insurance because of my health issues. I can't afford to have a lapse in coverage. There are not a lot of jobs in my area. I don't live in Boston. lol. I live in Mississippi. This is not exactly a booming economy here, you know. There aren't a lot of people, not a lot of industry, not alot of companies...It's just difficult to find one. Weeks go by without a single job being listed in the paper or anything around here. It is just not that easy. And I can't just pick up and move to another place because I don't have the money to do so.

But there is a job open where I work now that I am going to apply for. I doubt that I will get it, but it never hurts to apply.

~*Jodi*~

I work at a community college, but yes I can take a free class a semester if I want to, but there is no point. I have taken all the classes that I need as far as academic classes and technical/vocational classes (such as nursing, health programs, industrial programs) are all taught during the daytime and I work full-time during the daytime. Besides, they make you become accepted into the program and go full time, and I cannot do that because they don't offer the classes at night.

My degree is in Business Management.

I am sure Boston does have plenty of jobs. I would have to have a job somewhere before I moved unless something strange happened, such as I lost my job, or something unforeseen happened here that caused me to move, or I met someone and wanted to move to be with them. I can't just pack up and move to start a new life because I don't have the money and all my doctors are here. It's a process, not a whimsical thing for me. You should know how it is since you have your own disability. Yours may be blindness and mine may be injuries, but still - a disability is a disability and I can't just pick up and move any old time I want to. I have to think things through and plan very carefully. I can't even just hop in the car and drive somewhere for a long time, because after 45 minutes in a car, I'm already in a lot of pain and am uncomfortable. So...

Besides I have 2 dogs and a cat, and I have to have a place to say that is accommodating.

Anyway, I don't know why I'm talking about all this. lol. Just rambling I suppose.

~*Jodi*~

I thought you liked getting notes from me.

I live on 12 acres of land in my own home, but my step-dad, who raised me from 3-16, has a home on that same land and so does my grandmother. It was nice of them to help me get a place set up on the land since I've been through some very tough things the past few years. I do appreciate it, and I suppose in some way I feel that he owed it to me for being such a horrible ass to me my entire childhood - beating the hell out of me, telling me I would never be anything and that nobody would ever love me, and keeping my self-esteem non-existent, among other things. He had a horrible temper and my brother and I spent our lives terrified of him. My brother is 6yrs younger than me though and that is his biological father. They have a decent relationship whereas I really don't have a relationship with my dad because we are too much alike in a lot of ways. I have a lot of issues that I deal with because of the way that he was to me. Most people have said that with all I've been through they'd have given up, but I am strong. Perhaps that is the best thing that I got from being abused by him. I have a lot of bad qualities because of it, but I am also a survivor and one of the strongest people in the world. I can deal with anything.

Besides them, most of my family lives in this area anyway, and I have a large extended family. My mom has 6 brothers and sisters.

So I do have people to take care of my animals should I go out of town for any reason. My dogs are my children. I love them very much. Animals were my only friends for many years. Well, animals and pen/paper so I am a 'writer'.

I am sure that the company will just search your name online and find out your favorite food since it's not on the application. lol.

~*Jodi*~

I have been outside Mississippi before, so I can comprehend big cities because I have been there. lol. But yes, there is a lot of land and trees and grass and all that stuff down here. It's not all cement and skyscrapers. It's cool to have big buildings and a lot of people, but at the same time, it's cool to live in a quiet place where your dogs can run free and you can leave your doors unlocked.

Divorce runs rampant in my family, so your family being married for so many years is nice to know. That is where you get your idealized version of marriage from. I hope that you find what they have. I have no doubt that you will, though. Continue to hold out for that.

You are a lucky person in some ways, though I am sure in others you think that you are not. You are optimistic though, so I know that you count your blessings everyday.

If I had the money, I would travel all the time. But I am poor. So...

Anyway, I hope that you have a wonderful evening, and I shall chat with you tomorrow.

~*Jodi*~

I hope that he will get help also.

Yes, I have sex on my period. I'm pretty used to having a period now. I've been having one for 18 years. lol. If the guy is freaked out, then we won't do it but if he's cool with it and the mess, then I don't care. I mean, it's not a big deal. I guess some girls are a little weird.

I miss nice things about a relationship also. But I don't miss negative things - being under someone's thumb, having to take care of someone because it seems I never find anyone to take care of me, the nitpicking, the bickering, the annoying habits, all the fighting and arguing that seems to come from me picking the wrong people...

I'm sure that one day everything will fall into place though so I'm not all that worried about it. But there are things that I miss. I didn't realize how much I missed sleeping with someone until last night though. But at the same time, I want to sleep alone sometimes, too. I like having it both ways I guess.

~*Jodi*~

Hey!!! -huggles- Sorry I haven't been on AIM. I got a lap top for graduation, and it wont sign into my name. Yeah, I know its the economy it just sucks.. BLAH on the USA..

true true =]. I actully got it though, so its all good =]