Happy Easter to all who selebrate it.
You can wish me an easy Passover... but it is almost over lol
The dynamics of a family structure and spacificly, the children's birth order, has always been an interesting one.
I have pondered this for a while to myself...
At almost any opritunities, my younger sister and older brother and if I let myself admit it, even my twin on ocasions, put me down.
This evening, my entire family had dinner together.
Lindsay, my sis in law, read a fb note which I will get into later because it is really funny.
Then my older brother said "Jonathan you need to learn how to spell" my sister then said "ya, you need to learn how to spell. casino is not spelt with an O. it's ca-si-no. not co-si-no" my older brother then said "You need lessons on how to spell..." (and yes, this was in front of my parents)
It is hard to learn to spell when you are taken out of regular mainstreme classes from 2nd grade till 8th grade. In this time, I had very little formal English classes. On top of this, being blind, my means of reading was and still is, listening to books on tape and or listening to my computer reading to me. For those who ever listened to a book on tape-cd-mp3, do they spell out every word as they are reading? If not, how am I suppose to learn to spell if I do not get the constant visual-auditorial recognition?
I use spell check on here sometimes.
When I write a document for work or when I use to go to school, I would always use spell check.
I felt really stupid sitting at the dining room table.
Another thing tonight that bothered me...
I walked into the kitchen and my sister said "want to sit down?" I said yes, where can I sit?
She said "over there"
Can someone tell me where my sister was talking about? because I had no idea.
I heard my sister and sis in law's voices were pretty close so I took a step to my sister's right. She said "not there, over here" like I was stupid. Like i was not following her directions. I took the seat left of my sister, the seat I thought she was sitting in.
There are 4 words which I hate.
"here" "there" "this" and "that"
My family, including my own mother, use them.
So, can someone tell me where "here" is or "there" is?
How about what "this" is or what "that" is?
it just... frustrates me and makes me feel stupid
The ironic thing, no matter how far I went up in the educational latter or where I have worked, whether it be with teenagers at a boys and girls club or working with mentally ill teens in a classroom or working with adults with mentall illnesses in either a day program or in a house, I can count on a single hand, the times I felt stupid because of my disability.
Even you bloop buddies, you dont judge my horrible spelling or if I ask what a pic is on your page, you dont say "it doesnt matter" "dont worry about it" like SOME of my family members do.
I have traveled far and wide across this nation.
I know most of my abilities. I know most of my limitations.
What do I say to my older brother when he says "I can go to (name of place) myself, you can too." "take a bus" "you'll figure it out from there" ... In reference last year of wanting to go see my favorite current player in DC.
I realize that a lot of people fill their time watching tv shows and movies.
My siblings are all huge movie buffs and have their regular tv shows they watch weekly. Since I lost my vision entirely some... 19 years ago, tv shows and movies, for the most part, have become boring. (You try to watch a show with your eyes closed, let me know what you think)
So I feel out of it when most of the conversation is about movies or tv shows. When it turns to sports, I am all over that. I realize that this is true for a lot of people. A lot of people watch tv shows and movies. I think it will be one reason that it will be a little dificult to find a special lady. I know I have to find other hobbies but I dont know what it could be.
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Boyz2men
I missed or rather, couldnt think of something last night that I wanted to tell you in my last entry about the concert.
They told a story about how some songs they pick to sing and they do well with and then there are songs which they turn down. Here is a story about a song which they turned down.
A producer came to them and asked if they would sing a song. They looked it over and it sounded "old" They were too "hip" to do "old" music so they turned it down.
The producer gave it to another group to do. This song turned out to be a number one hit, spinning a number one album from it. If that wasnt bad enough, the group went to LA because they won a grammy for it. It took us years of therapy to get over it. no, just kidding.
Well, we would like to sing the song how we would have sang it.
To really love a woman
to understand her
you’ve got to know what deep inside
hear every thought see every dream
and give her wings when she wants to fly
and when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman
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My best friend's wife who calls me her "second husband"
posted the following on her fb yesterday and I thought it was so funny.
"I had the radio on in the car tonight and Holden informed me "Holden don't like that song. Different song." So I changed the station until he heard a Bon Jovi song, at which point he said "good song, mama take hand off!". And now I am starting to wonder if he really is Jonathan's child."
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