i don't want a movie star marriage. i don't even want a romance novel relationship. i want to be with someone who honestly wants to be with me. who respects me as his equal and shows me he loves me every day of his life. someone who wants to spend time with me, someone who doesn't feel obligated to "humor" me with petty examples of quality time. someone who truly makes an effort to make our relationship work. i want a man that i can count on. i don't want to have to raise a husband. call me selfish, entitled, or whatever, but i think i deserve at least that. it breaks my heart that he is like this.i just want a decent guy. why is that so hard? you know how broken i am, you know exactly what i want and what i need from you. i have said it every way i know how. spelled it out countless times letter by letter. each syllable clear as a bell. or so i thought. instead, i get to watch netflix all afternoon while you play your stupid game, and not even get an apology for being treated like shit earlier the same day. of course you think everything is okay. why wouldn't it be? you have everything you could ever want. a roof over your head, someone else is paying your bills for you, free internet, and let's not forget unlimited access to xbox live. the rest of us have to be grown ups too. why can't you?? you are married after all........ |
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