So, when I got married I thought that it would be such a grand adventure. Torture sometimes, heartwarming others, and just plain lets get lost and find things again... To my amazement it's so much more. I love my husband to bits, he stresses me out, makes me feel crazy, doesn't do what i want and then complains, makes terrible jokes that make me mad, doesn't pay enough attention to me but in the end he goes out of his way to make it up to me. This past weekend we decided to spend the day out shopping, we are not big shoppers so we didn't buy much, we went to the city near us and walked in and out of stores talking and just being with each other. The down fall cam when all the baby tiredness came on, oh poor hubby he couldn't make my back feel better or my head stop pounding, and he told me 'i told you to take it easy. you can't be doing marathons just because you want to' LOL which I know. So we got home and I was BEAT I felt like i couldn't move anymore, i laid down and it hurt but i needed to relax we watched a movie together and went to bed. Got up the next day and read that wonderful pregnancy book "What to expect when your expecting" AND BAM! There it is, 'during pregnancy, it is good for you to stay motivated but understand that your body and baby need more rest now. Make sure to take plenty of breaks and not to overdo things. Don't stop when your hurting, stop before because that stress is hard on you and the baby but most of all enjoy your friends and family babying you because before to long that baby will be out and you won't know how to stop because you will constantly being doing hundreds of things at once.' (What to expect..)
It's not that I don't know all that, it really isn't even that I want to be in pain or babied but I also know that i can't become an invalid just because I am pregnant. My big problem is that I don't want to be one of those wives that gets pregnant to get lazy about things. I want to stay active, keep doing my own things, and stand on my own two feet. I can still do many things and I know at some point within the next couple months I won't be able to do. So.. I push myself but I cant do that either The battle of my brain and my body continues and yet still no winner. It's a humbling process for me. God brings this beautiful awesome gift my way and I have to remember just how delicate it is and that it was from him not me that it happened. I'm always learning to slow down and think but more than that Patients! Ahhh what a virtue it is, things take time and sometimes we need to stop and let it catch up or we need to catch up. Baby is growing inside of me and I have a responsibility to carry it and be careful because this precious gift isn't just a toy to be played with and thrown away it's something to nurture and handle with care.
Jesus, is a special gift and how many of us forget that our sins he bore? Those beatings, that crown, the humiliation is nothing compared to the sin he took on for us. We often times overlook just how precious that gift is because we could never understand. He came as a small innocent child and left, the only man to, as a grown innocent man. Beatings, humiliation, hanged, bled, suffered, and finally separated, from the one thing he deserved over any and all, God.
I always come back to this song because it is really how I feel most of the time. We just could never fully grasp the magnitude of the greatest gift but as mothers we get a glimpse of it, as fathers you see the strength and power it holds but without understanding the burden 'Who Are We?'
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The battle of my brain and my body continues and yet still no winner. It's a humbling process for me. God brings this beautiful awesome gift my way and I have to remember just how delicate it is and that it was from him not me that it happened. I'm always learning to slow down and think but more than that Patients! Ahhh what a virtue it is, things take time and sometimes we need to stop and let it catch up or we need to catch up. Baby is growing inside of me and I have a responsibility to carry it and be careful because this precious gift isn't just a toy to be played with and thrown away it's something to nurture and handle with care.
