We haven't been in a relationship for years, but we're still friends (well, more like acquaintances) and we talk. Sometimes, you ask me certain things like 'do you miss me?' or 'are you really over me?' and i say 'no' and 'yes' because that's what i do--deny deny deny. Then, I saw that you got engaged. I know that it's not going to change a lot. We'll still talk and pretend everything is fine, that there is nothing between us anymore. You'll continue to live your life, I'll continue to live mine, and I will continue to deny everything. But here? I'm going to say that seeing that you got engaged - seeing a stupid status change, stung more than a little. Mostly because I always thought we'd get married.
I am okay with my life (or I say I am, anyway) but hell, if you asked me to marry you instead of the person that your with, I'd probably say yes - even though I hate the idea of marriage and relationships now. You're still the one I'd reconsider everything for. Does that make me messed up? Yes, but we already knew that, didn't we?
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