the chamber of shrinkage

01/07/2010

so i'm watching sponge bob with my son. lol i have noticed they say some crazy things on here. but i love it. i need to get in the shower. i hate when i don't work or don't do anything. i feel like monday thru today i have wasted away 4 days of my life that i can't get back. this blows. i can't believe i only work friday saturday and sunday. i hate it. hopefully they will put me on more days next week but we'll see. and i hate the snow. i have to work 11-5 tomorrow and i am dreading going out in the morning and cleaning my car off ugh.

ok so i want to start school for LPN but at this one school i have to get all these pre req's done to even get into the class and financial aid doesn't cover ANY of it. that's over 1000 $ i have to come out of pocket and even then i prob won't start until next january ugh. so there is this place called WIA at the job center and they would pay for it all IFFFFFFFFFFFF they had any funds... but they don't right now so i have to keep calling to see if they have any funds. i get so frustrated and feel like giving up i want to start school NOW, i don't want to wait or go thru all this process. then yesterday i was thinking about how i had used to want to be a massage therapist so i looked up the school over this way and they have a class starting jan 26th and financial aid will pay for all of it and i would be done in october... and i was thinking about going back to cosmo school... but then i talk to my bf and my mom and they lecture me about always changing my mind and i need to stick to one thing and it wouldn't be a good idea and all this stupid stuff and all i could do was cry because i never have anyone behind me on anything i do. i really just want to get a job doing phlebotomy doing what i'm already trained to do and had done for a year and a half. i love it... y can't i find a job doing that? i'm really good at it i just wish someone would give me a chance. idk y i can't get a break. so i guess i'm gonna see about getting my stna and just work toward getting in the lpn class that's all i can do right? just gotta stick with something and do it i get so frustrated and i hate snow... lol love u all