celebrate your dreams.

03/24/2010

when you are awake.

life.
what else can i say?
honestly, things have been better.
but then again, things have been worse.

going through transitions,
ending poisonous relationships,
in the hopes of replacing them with healthy ones.

i am doing good though.
i am so thankful for a good doctor.
i think i'm finally coming around.
i'm not always miserable,
though i do have my days.

met with a financial planner today.
& might i add, a fucking SEXY financial planner.
too bad he could see how poor i am,
but at least he got a chuckle out of it.
but, my future is not so bleak as i thought.
i'm going to be able to afford going back to school
& moving to montreal.
i'm also going to be able to pay off my debt, so much faster.
i dont know why i never went to one sooner.
& now i am officially an investor. i guess, i am growing up :)

also, have cut back on the mary jane quite a bit.
no longer and every day abuser.
no longer even a purchaser.
i am proud of myself,
and i feel 100 times better.

i am starting to run.
i love the energy it gives me.
again, not sure why i never did it sooner.
i guess, now is as good a time as any to start living right.

things are still shit with mike.
i think he's lying to me.
i think i need to break up with him.
i hate relationships.

on the bright side,
i met the man of my dreams,
except he is completely unattainable.
musician, FRIENDS with kevin drew,
tall. dark. handsome.
just. a completely lovely soul.
but i honestly dont think i cut it for him
& i'm sure he has a girlfriend.
because i dont know how he couldn't.
only now am i working up the courage to email him.
we'll see if he emails me back.

sigh.
pitter patter goes my heart.