Ive been crying for weeks, one because I feel so unhappy and inferior and lost, and two because i think i want to leave, and i want to stay
So JImmy said I should write a list of all the reasons to stay and all the reasons to go
STAY
1. So I dont regret it later
2. So I'm not ashamed of myself
3. I'll get a degree and have more chance of the job I want
4. Something about the student experience (havent had any such thing so far)
5. I might be good at this whole thing
6. Be free from mum
7. if i leave I'll have a 7000 debt and fuck all to show for it
8 .I like taekwondo
*downsides*
I'll carry on being sad, running up a debt, feeling lost, cant do the work
GO
1. Get a real job, feel like I'm worth something
2. Earn and spend money thats actually mine
3. Have a real life - feel kinda free again
4. move in with jimmy in a rented little house
5. become an air hostess like i planned (cos you dont need qualifications for it anyway)
*downsides*
Might not be easy getting into airhostessing without the degree cos of competition, have to live with mum for a bit + extra added shame. |
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