Making a change

It’s been quite a while since I have written here… as always. I feel that every single entry that I write starts with “oh my gosh it’s been so long since I have written in the diary! Oh my gosh!”, I really should get better at it, heh.

I have been trying to make a conscious effort of doing things on my days off from work. Beforehand I would just sit at my desk, watch YouTube n TV shows, chat online in Discord, play games, all for endless hours. I would do this day in day out whenever I wasn’t at work and when I wasn’t round Mums giving her a helping hand with this that n the other.

I’m not sure what made me start, but the last few weeks I have been trying to make sure that I have plans every time that I am off, if I am off for more than one day in a row I allow myself a “be lazy at home day” but that’s only if there are consecutive days off together. It doesn’t matter what it is, it doesn’t have to be something elaborate. Some of the things that I have been doing more is visiting friends (I have friends in Norwich which isn’t far in the car, a few friends locally). Sometimes it’s just meeting up with Kieran and having lunch or something. We normally go out with the drones or the cameras, but over the winter its been more of hanging out at his flat or going out for some grub. But it’s something! Just getting out of these four walls basically!

Recently Kieran has got together with Danni. I kind of pushed them together a little - I’m good at that! Adam & Lucy, now Kieran and Danni… Just need to work on getting my own life sorted with a lady friend again now. I miss it. A lot. Not just the sex, not even anything physical really. It’s just that one person that you can always count on to do things with. If I fancy going to watch a movie, who with? Ya know? There’s that one person that you have by your side, that one person that you can count on, that one person that you can always text, that one person that’s always happy to receive a random visit or a random phone call. It’s that - that I miss the most.

Usually when we go out for lunch (or Crunch - I’ll save the reasoning behind that one for another entry) it’s Me, Kieran, Danni and W. W is someone that I’ve always got on with (work friend) but not someone that I have spent a lot of time outside of the work restraint (if any, really. Work nights out we usually tag along together, but that’s about it). She sent me a text a few weeks ago asking if I fancied hanging out outside of work, thus why we added her to the hang out with Kieran etc. It’s weird. Never seen her as a….. possible suiter, which I still don’t. But I feel like maybe she does? I don’t know. Who knows anymore. Either way, I am enjoying her company.

Over n out.