family feud.

12/22/2011

for the past 3 months ive been fighting with my cousin, Angela. we used to be so close, i told her everything, she was like the sister i never had even though we lived so far away from eachother. i live in new york and she lives in virginia so we really only get to see eacthother like 2 times a year, which sucks but we always had a blast. i winded up moving in with her and my aunt late last june, i stayed the entire summer and even started school there. everything was fine between me and ang in the beginning and then we just started fighting all the time! usually over the stupidest of things. in my opinion its because we're so much alike. i thought being in virginia would be a good thing for me because i would be with angela, nikki, grandma, aunt lori, and all my other family members that are there.. but in my mind because i didnt talk to them for almost 8 years because of stupid shit involving my parents, i just felt left out sometimes ..like in the memories and old stories we used to talk about. Angela and Nikki are sisters and my aunt Lori is their mom. Nikki lives on her own with her boyfriend, Tyrone, and their new baby, Haleigh. Ang and Nikki are really close and have a great relationship and honestly i was jealous of it.. i felt like they would always take eachothers side before mine. things just got harder for me as time went on so in october i moved back to new york with my mom.. which did not go over well with the family. they all thought i was making the wrong choice. ang is almost exactly a year and a half older then me and she always used to act like she knew everything and that she was always right and it drove me crazy. we were having some stupid school drama the day i left and i wa so mad at her i didnt even say goodbye ...then after that we started tweeting this horrible shit about eachother ..things just kept getting worse. now we havent spoken in like 4 months and honestly it upsets me ... i miss her. as much as we could fight she was still one of my best friends and now we "hate" eachother. i wish i could actually talk to her but she blocked me on facebook and i dont have her number .. soo there is really no way to solve this. ive decided not to go on the family camping trip this july because shes usually the person i spend the entire weekend with ... fighting with her really has separated me from my entire family because everyone is now mad at me... even though im not the only one who did something wrong. ugh this just really sucks .. anyone know what i can do to solve this?