2.30PM.
I don't know if i can do this.
- Maybe i should have this baby?
I'm so confused! When i went to the clinic yesterday to tell the nurse i've decided to have a termination i ended up rawing infront of her again. She described the 'process', and it jus sounds so cruel. Shane is no help. He said he's very certain that a termination is the right thing. Bollox. More like he'd have a responsibility so he wouldn't be able to fuck as many girls as he has been. Still, he'll never admit that to me. First appointment is on Thursday - i've got to have a scan before they can give me the first tablet. I don't think i can take it ): Seeing a little baby on that screen, and then killing it. It jus doesn't seem right. I think, infact i know, i'll end up on the floor in tears then i won't be able to go through with it. If that's what happens then i jus hope i can bring up this babaa as it is deserved. Plus i've already a name. Babaa Waltar. Fuck knows if it's a girl. Haha! She'll jus have to put up with being called a lads name (;
Jus looked at myself in the mirror. My boobies have grown already, hehe. They're nice! Facking sore though. And i've got another lump coming. Oh joy!
Absolutely bored out of my mind today.
I'm watching 60 Minute Makeover. Exciting!
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