From someone who has been suicidal herself, who lost her father to suicide at age twelve and then a close family friend the next year I can say this hits it on the nail.
This was written by a page admin on facebook called Starshine:
"To those who think suicide is a joke, or joke about it, no. That is not okay. You treat suicide like it's a joke. Well guess what? It's not. Do you have any idea what it's like to stare at the metal object on your bedside table and want so badly to dig it into your skin? Do you know what it's like to stare at food on your plate and think, "is it worth it?" Do you know what it's like to have anxiety so high that when you happen to type things wrong too many times, you almost cry? Do you know what it's like to wake up every day thinking "here we go again". Then to put on a fake smile so no one asks what is wrong, then have to come here and listen to you all make fucking jokes out of suicide? Do you know what it's like for someone to ask you "what's wrong?" or "why are you sad?" and you have to reason for them? You're just sad? Do you know what it's like to go to sleep every night, crying, thinking "would it be so bad if I didn't wake up?" or "would anyone really miss me?" You might know what some of this is like, I don't know, but from the way that you treat suicide, self harm, depression etc makes me think that you don't. Feeling depressed and suicidal is one of the worst things in the world. To actually want to end your life isn't a cope out because you got a bad report card or someone said they didn't love you. No. To actually think that ending your life, to leave this earth, is the only thing that can make your life somewhat bearable is the worst. There is nothing that is worse than that. Even knowing someone that is depressed and suicidal is shit because you feel absolutely helpless and that one day, if they do actually go through with it, you blame yourself. So maybe next time you will think before you make a joke out of suicide. Oh and people say "he was joking. No big whoop." Don't you know that making jokes about suicide is almost as bad as being serious. And before I said maybe you will, maybe you'll think before you make a joke out of suicide or self harming. But I only say maybe because I know you won't."
https://www.facebook.com/TheBelleOfSweets?ref=stream Is the page Starshine admin's on facebook.
Thank you Starshine for posting this it means the world to me.
It describes suicide in a way I have never seen it described before.
In a way I personally could not but wish I could.
It also describes some other mental illness's I have had so well.
I am so grateful. |
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