SO....big news in this entry.
i shotgunned a beer firs thing as soon as courtney got back from class at 2. and i was drinking another when Jamie came in to my room.
Jamie is one of my good friend's boyfriend. He also happens to be friends with Jason.
i dont know how it came up, but he said that he knew the reason Jason stopped calling me.
so i obviously asked him to tell me.
but he wouldnt........??????????
he said that it wasnt his place to tell me and people always give him shit for having a big mouth.
so i went into lauren's room and cried a little. which was very weird because i haven't cried at college yet.
even when im at home and i cry, my mom gets like.. extremely worried. it is a rare rare occurrence.
anyway so after my 5 second tear time, i got another beer and we all went outside of my building and sat in the sun
and got drunk and it was awesome
and cam came. and he is so sexy
then i passed out on the lawn which was a dumb idea because there are a shit ton of RA's
ughhh thennnn i came back inside.
and an hour later i went back out for a cigarette and i was leaving a message for my best friend in the world about how upset i was and who drives up? obviously jason.
he gets out of the car with his friend. they were moving boxes and stuf because he got a new apartment.
he stopped and said hi and we made small talk for a bit.
all i wanted to do was either cry or just go back inside, but i didnt want to be weird.
so skip ahead a few hours
i see Jamie again and i told him that its driving me crazy that i dont know why he stopped calling me and it would honestly make me feel better to know.
jamie just kept saying stuff like.. i dont want to hurt your feelings.
i finally go it out of him.
im too slutty.
alright. awesome.
i KNEW i was giving him that impression. i just fucking knew it.
its because i like to give head
its because he knows i was hooking up with other guys
its because i am a fucking slut
its because when he told me he didnt want a gf, i assumed that meant he just wanted to hook up
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