I Don't Know....

I seriously don't know right now. Everything is so messed up and I'm pretty sure I've gotten myself into a HEAP of trouble financially by my own stupidity. But it was only partially stupid. I did it to help. I did it to make sure he was okay. I need him to be okay. That's all I was trying to. But now I've fucked up so many other things. Omg how can I be so stupid? I don't understand. There is no easy solution here. I have to keep him okay. But I can't get myself fucked either. Blah. I just worry so much. All the time. And there is nothing in this world I can do. NOTHING. Except doing what I was doing and spending money. And that only helps on the surface, it doesn't help with many of the problems. But besides that there is NOTHING. So what am I supposed to do? What AM I going to do?????